Whew, its been a year so far. I think I've said that, easily, the past six years, and at this point, the concept of change and the ole switch up is just the norm. Sometimes its the good shit - a hard earned PR, a qualifier, a holy shit I did not see that amazing thing coming plot twist....and sometimes its just....shit.
2025 has been one hell of a ride. As I alluded to in my last post, my best intentions of dusting off 2023 and taking the "year off" in 2024 might have seemed logical to me - but it wasn't. It was certainly a transition year for the ending of my marriage, and adjusting to what life on the other side looked like, but the real changes never hit the fan until super late in the year and while I was eager for that "next phase" - life reminded me to take it as it came.
I don't regret the pause for one more year of Ironman. At all. This year has been exactly what it should have been, and in ten years, if I still haven't made it to Kona.....I don't regret a thing. Again, its all about balance and applying that balance to where it matters most.
But...whats next? Thats a good question. When I hit the defer button on IMLP, it was the right choice. I did what I needed to race weekend, and spent it camping with my kids. I eagerly pressed "register" for 2026 and know that its going to be the best race ever - with the best ever friend that got me back into this mess in 2019. I cannot wait.But I also can. because on top of life, my body has been telling me to take a pause from endurance training. And even though I'm a stubborn jackass - I've listened.
This summer has been full of ice cream, amusement parks, movies, swimming and so much fun. Its also snuck in some light swims, bikes and runs. Some days, its a great workout. Some days, its knowing that a four mile run is all I've got.
To date - none of them have been anywhere near knocking out of the ball park.
And I'm ok with it.
Six years ago, I got kinda fast. Three years ago, I got even a little faster. Never pro fast. Never even elite fast. But fast enough to place, to win, some local races. Fast enough to KQ and BQ. And it was so much freaking fun. So much fun in a way that I keep shaking my head going - is this real??? And it was.
I'm not so fast now. And i always wondered how that would feel. Because I loved this sport when I was a back of packer. I even loved it when I was afraid of my bike (oh, bless my soul Im glad we got over that one. Took 15 years but hey, Im stubborn not bright). I loved it when I was lucky enough to place in my AG. And I loved it when I broke the tape and won.I'm not that athlete right now. Not even close. And....I still love it. So whats next? Peasantman, of course. Tomorrow I get to do all the things I love best, with some of the best people. This is such a special race for me - the whole First Knight Team and production crew, the amazing friends that race, and the memories of the first time I toed the line here 3 years ago with a buggy, a rainstorm, an overall win...and a cupcke to boot :)
Each year, there are new surprises and new experiences, but the whole day is so special and it doesnt even matter what my "pace" is - its all about the love of the sport.
So thats whats next. And after tomorrow? Well, you're just gonna have to stay tuned because my A race is coming up August 31. And if you've understood any of this post, it'll be well worth the reveal :-P